When I was young, I went through period of time where I felt alone. I didn't have anyone, and I barricaded my heart, and turned out the light. I ran out of things to tell myself, to try and cope with a wound so big, I never thought it would heal. I was silent. I stayed silent for years. I let people go. I ruined relationships, and gave up on the wrong things. On a day like to day, I think back to then. I think back to when I would have rather caved in then faced the days again. I think to a day where I fought so hard to seclude myself from my struggles, I ended up secluding myself from the outstretched arms willing to help me.
On a day like to day, I relive every single moment from the time my world fell apart. I relive the anguish, and the heartbreak. On a day like today, I allow myself to grieve for the time I lost myself. I lost who I was, what I stood for, who I loved, and everything I had wanted. I allow myself to be angry, sad, joyful, and content. But I always remember one thing; I was given a second chance.
On a day like today, I have to remind myself exactly how good I had it. I have to allow myself to be able to enjoy every moment I have now, so I have to remove myself from the past. On a day like today, I look around me and see all the new beginnings, and all the new changes. I see a brighter future, and a stronger me.
On a day like today I stop and think, I could have ended it all before I got to a day like today.
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